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Ed Watters: To overcome, you must educate.

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Educate not only yourself, but
educate anyone seeking to learn.

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We are all Dead America,
we can all learn something.

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To learn, we must challenge
what we already understand.

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The way we do that is
through conversation.

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Sometimes we have conversations with
others, however, some of the best

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conversations happen with ourselves.

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Reach out and challenge yourself; let’s
dive in and learn something new right now.

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Today, we are speaking
with Rebeccah Silence.

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She is an expert in human behavior, an
emotional healing coach, she’s written

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a book called Coming Back to Life.

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Rebeccah, could you please
introduce yourself, let people know

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a little more about you, please?

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Rebeccah Silence: Thank you
so much for having me, I’m

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thrilled and honored to be here.

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I’m Rebeccah Silence, and I am a
self healing and relationship expert.

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And really the space where all
healing is possible and my mission

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is for kids to have healed parents.

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And in 2024, we’re helping
a million families heal.

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So thank you again for having me, and I’m
ready for a life changing conversation.

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Ed Watters: As always, so am I.

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Rebeccah, it’s remarkable what I’ve
researched about you, you’ve went through

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some struggles and those struggles
brought you here today to share with us.

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So living with a dysfunctional alcoholic
family, I’m well versed in that.

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And it really has upset the
apple cart of my life in many

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ways, but the same goes for me,

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I’m glad I went through the
experiences so we can turn around

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today and help other people go through
similar things without the struggle.

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So what was your, uh, episodic periods
of alcoholism in your life like?

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Because usually it’s a roller coaster,
sometimes you have good experiences

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in life and then it’s tragedy.

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What was that like for you?

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Rebeccah Silence: Well, I think
first of all, let me just say,

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I am not a positivity coach.

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I’m not here to help us find the
silver lining or the good in the bad.

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I’m here to say that no matter
what, possibility still exists.

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I don’t think life happens to
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us, I think it’s just happening.

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And what we have power and control over
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face of whatever moment we find ourselves
in, preferential, non preferential, right?

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So with that disclaimer, I guess what
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almost more comfortable and comforting
when you’ve grown up in an alcoholic

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addictive, dysfunctional, abusive
home when there’s an upset apple cart.

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It’s almost less easy and more upsetting
when everything appears to be good.

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Like we’re good at the
apple cart is upset.

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Now what, right?

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We’re not so good at everything seems
in order and I trust that, you know?

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So one of the things I like to say
is, We’re not healing the trauma.

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We’re healing so that we can handle
joy, and peace, and fun, and good.

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And I want, and I literally have
goosebumps as I’m saying this right now to

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all of you, life at home to be delicious,
to be glorious, to be beautiful.

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And for so many of us, life at home
as adults is the same levels of

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dissatisfaction we had growing up because
it’s comfortable because it’s comforting.

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It’s not what we want, but we,
we know how to navigate survival.

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What we don’t know how
to navigate is alignment.

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So my story is one where I grew up just
knowing there had to be a better way.

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Like, can’t we just love each other?

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And then that heals us.

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Can’t, if we love more, if we’re more
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hearts, can’t life at home get good?

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And I grew up in the middle of so
much trauma and abuse on every level.

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And while I understood it could be better,
it didn’t matter, the understanding,

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I ended up recreating my childhood.

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So my real episodic moment was
finding myself twenty-five years

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old with, you know, a master’s
degree in process in counseling, 4.

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0 GPA, and a two year old, and I’m
in a domestic violence marriage.

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And I’m realizing just because
I understand generational trauma

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doesn’t have to repeat, I’m
still finding myself in it.

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So there has to be a next level of work
and healing to do because I get it.

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I have immersed myself in working
at a state psychiatric hospital,

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I’m a board certified music
therapist, I have a 4.

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0 GPA master’s degree in counseling,
and I am re enacting my childhood with

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all of the purest best intentions.

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What on earth?

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What can I do to learn how
to actually break the cycle?

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Because the understanding
of it isn’t enough.

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So I ended up getting out of that
marriage with my two year old, going

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bankrupt, working three jobs, starting
my private practice, getting coaching

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certifications in addition to my master’s
degree, and just very much focused

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on no generational trauma cycles,
absolutely have to heal and they can.

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And anybody that wants it, I’m
going to be their guiding light.

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But I’m going to have to go first,
which is exactly what I did.

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Ed Watters: That’s big right there.

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You know, if you don’t change yourself
first, you can’t change anybody else.

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And that’s the struggle that many people
walk every day, it is a true struggle.

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I’m in a relationship, a long
relationship, I’ve been with my

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wife for forty-one years, we’ve
been married thirty-nine this year.

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She’s a wonderful woman, I don’t
know how she did it, you know?

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Because I understand the difficult
times we both went through.

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We suffered these emotional traumas
as children, and then we tried to re

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invent ourselves going into a marriage.

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And we had no clue of what or how, and
that dysfunction just crept right back in.

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And until you really address the
innermost deepest, darkest slime

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that’s in you and say, I’m better than
this, you’re not going to get better.

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Is that a good take on life?

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Rebeccah Silence: I mean, first of all,
congratulations for keeping your beautiful

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marriage together for four plus decades.

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I am in awe and so happy for
what you’re modeling to every

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life you and your wife touch.

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And for me, you know, my greatest
testimony that healing is truly possible

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isn’t all of the abuse and violence
and I’m a cancer survivor that was

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given a five percent chance to live.

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It’s not all these odds I’ve
beat, it’s the marriage I have

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and the life at home I have.

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So I don’t think there’s a more

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beautiful gift that we can give ourselves,
you know, than a healed family life,

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regardless of where we come from.

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I think that is super important,
and I don’t think we can ever change

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anybody, no matter how healed we
are, but we can set the example.

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We can model what being emotionally
cleared and healed looks like.

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Because again, mindset and strategy work.

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And understanding, it’s not going to
be enough ever to heal a trauma, to

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break a cycle, or to stop a pattern
that no longer serves us, right?

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So in marriages, the key is to
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I love to say, The mission is healing, the
cure is self responsibility for, whether

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or not I’m emotionally clear and healed.

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That is my responsibility, the
other person isn’t the source

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of my happiness or my pain.

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They’re not the magic bullet that’s
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me and make my life worth it or
make my childhood trauma better.

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It’s up to me to feel how I want
to feel and to be the version of

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myself that I can be proud of at
my best, letting my best be enough.

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And that is, that’s my job.

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That’s my only job.

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So in a marriage, when both
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am I emotionally clear or not?

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Am I being my best or not?

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And am I a space for,
with love and compassion?

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Seeing my partner’s innocence and letting
their best be enough in this moment.

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When I’m there, it’s a glorious ride.

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When I’m not, I’m at the effect
of life and I’m in survival.

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Ed Watters: Yes, that’s huge.

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I, I agree a hundred
percent with all of that.

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One of the big things that I came
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was high functioning unhappiness.

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This is a big statement,
and it intrigued me.

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I need to know more.

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Could you fill us in on that, please?

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Rebeccah Silence: Yeah.

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Well, what I found over the years
is when I talk about generational

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trauma can heal, I don’t care
how bad, how dark, what it is.

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I’m an incest survivor.

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I mean, there is no trauma
that can’t heal, right?

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Well, when I was talking about, in
my messaging, generational trauma and

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let’s heal our trauma, everybody, you
know, runs away as fast as they can,

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like, we don’t want to go there, right?

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We want to leave Pandora’s box all tucked
in with a bow on it and not deal with it.

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When in fact what’s in there
is running and potentially

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even ruining our lives anyway.

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You know, so when I was thinking
about, okay, messaging for all of the

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beautiful hearts and souls that do want
to heal and do want to break the cycle.

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You know, I thought, Well,
actually, actually the solution

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is healing generational trauma.

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But the real reason to hang out with me
is because you’re ready to resolve your

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unresolved high functioning unhappiness.

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I work with generational healers in
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are bad asses, they are executives,

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they are entrepreneurs, they are,
they are public servants, right?

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And they are giving and they are
serving at home to their spouse, to

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their kids, in their jobs and in their
companies, to their teams, and to

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their clients, and to their audiences.

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And there’s this level of
dissatisfaction that I found.

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I’ve been in private practice now

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almost seventeen years.

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I’ve worked with thousands in my private
practice and hundreds of thousands in

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my audience and what I see time and time
again is they’re dissatisfied, they’re

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unfulfilled, and they don’t know why.

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And I just gave it a name, I called
it high functioning unhappiness.

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Because we talk about high functioning
depression, we talk about high

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functioning addiction, we talk about
high functioning autism, nobody’s talking

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about high functioning unhappiness.

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And what I mean by that is you give, and
you give, and you give, and you give, and

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you are very achievement-wise successful.

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And you know it, but are you happy?

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Are you fulfilled?

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Are you satisfied?

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And some signs that you might be dealing
with high functioning unhappiness

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are just exhaustion, physical,
mental, emotional, irritability,

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telling yourself, what is my problem?

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I should just be more
grateful, life looks so good.

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Cause see, for so many of you, your
life doesn’t look like your childhood.

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You did break the cycle in many ways.

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But if you’re feeling the same in your
family, in your life, when you’re alone

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with yourself, as you did growing up,
it doesn’t matter that on paper it looks

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different because it feels the same.

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So what we want is to get how
you feel under control and in

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alignment with the truth of who
you are and how you want to feel.

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And what we don’t want to do is threaten
the high functioning part of your life.

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And what I realized doing research
and just looking at all this clinical

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experience I have under my belt is
people are afraid to threaten the

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high functioning part of their lives.

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Because we want to serve,

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we want to give, we want
to make a difference.

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If you are hanging out with
me, you are a difference maker.

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But the real truth is we have to threaten
the unhappiness part of your life.

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And if we don’t, you’re
already threatening the high

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functioning part of your life.

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My work isn’t around threatening the
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it’s about protecting and preserving it.

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But we’ve got to get beyond the fear
that happiness doesn’t even exist and

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we’ve got to threaten the unhappiness.

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If you’re going to be as high functioning,
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and impact you can make in your life,
and better than how you grew up,

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I’m just going to boldly say
isn’t good enough for you.

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I want you in a world where your life
now as an adult is healed, and yours

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and on your terms, and you’re high
functioning, and you’re happy and it

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doesn’t feel like a reenactment of your
childhood in any way, shape, or form.

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And we’re not knocking your family,
your parents, where you come from,

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they did the best they could
with the tools they have.

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But every family has a generational
healer in it and every family has that

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kid that goes, Why aren’t we doing better?

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There has to be a better way.

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But in almost every case that child
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me because nobody else seems to get it.

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And instead of going, No, the
dysfunction is the problem.

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That generational healer often decides
as a child, I must be the problem

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because nobody else sees what I’m seeing.

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And I’m here to say to all of you
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right and you deserve to be happy.

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And it’s time to break through
high functioning unhappiness.

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Ed Watters: So really the target
there is what you feel is not who

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you are, and you must figure out
who you are to find that happiness.

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It’s a big key in life, and we
struggle with many things trying

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to figure out, Hey, I don’t fit
in here, but I want to fit in.

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You know, there’s a struggle,
an emotional intelligence

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struggle, an emotional stamina,

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the problem, you know?

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And we’ve lost this ability to forgive
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against ourselves a lot of the time.

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If we can’t forgive ourselves,
the struggle will always continue.

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And that, that’s, you know, many people
go through different things in life

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and they feel different things about
different situations, and I can’t

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relate to any of them because I’m not
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All we have is empathy.

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And empathy is really tricky to
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We really don’t get empathy in our
world, what’s your take on empathy

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and being empathetic towards others
without giving them that pity trip?

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Rebeccah Silence: Totally!

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Okay, you are saying so much here, okay?

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So, let’s talk about feeling, right?

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Cause it, it really,
you can’t have empathy.

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You’re talking about feelings,
and forgiveness, and empathy.

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And, and I want to touch on all of
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So knowing how you want to feel is
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Who we became to survive our
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that’s our survival self.

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And we all get to have this moment where
we go, Uh uh, something has to give.

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But it isn’t you wake up one day and you
find yourself and you know who you are.

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You wake up one day and you go,
I don’t feel how I want to feel.

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And enough with surviving, okay?

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And then we design, my
last name is Silence.

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The first marriage I had, I married
a guy with the last name Silence.

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I was meek, I was shut down,
I really was at the time.

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And then I just loved who I
became as Rebeccah Silence.

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And my mission was to break the
chains and the cycles and to be a

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mom my little girl could be proud of.

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And at first I didn’t have the self worth
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for me, but I was going to be God damned

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if I was going to repeat history.

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And be aware that I was doing that
with this little girl in tow, right?

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So you, you start by knowing the
difference between your feelings

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about what’s going on around
you and the emotions you need

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to feel, they’re very different.

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So we can’t need the external to
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to feel how we want to feel
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You needing the external to
change is just a dead end, right?

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As my coach would say, It’s a
journey of seek and do not find.

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So what I teach are five emotions, five.

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That’s it.

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Anger, fear, grief, joy, excitement.

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Anger, fear, grief, joy, excitement,
everything else is learned.

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Rejection, jealousy, abuse,
abandonment, anxiety, depression,

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these are all our feelings about
what’s going on that are, how

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we’re coping with what’s going on.

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But underneath all of our feelings
about what’s happening around us is a

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core naturally occurring human emotion
that we need to feel just like a baby.

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We’ve all been around a baby that
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joy, excitement in 10 seconds.

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And there’s no resistance,
they’re happy as a clam, right?

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And to me, my definition of happiness
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anger, fear, grief, joy, excitement.

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So now let’s talk about forgiveness.

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Forgiveness is loving as much as you
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So until we know better,
we can’t do better.

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And where we haven’t forgiven
ourselves enough is for being human.

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And for being willing to have compassion
for our humanity, especially emotionally.

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Giving ourselves permission to
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from the level of awareness we
were at with the tools we have.

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And when we’re not giving
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emotionally express and to be fully
emotionally clear, that hurts.

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And it’s okay to have grief, and anger,
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And anytime you’re taking your emotions
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emotions on what’s going on externally,
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Which means you have no empathy towards
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any empathy towards anybody else.

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So my book, Coming Back To Life
A Roadmap To Heal From Pain To

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Create The Life You Want, has a
beautiful chapter on forgiveness.

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And I actually recently got an email from
a woman, in her therapist’s book club, I

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don’t know this therapist, but a therapist
has been using my book for a book club

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with his clients, and they spent an
entire month on my forgiveness chapter.

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And this woman wrote me an email just
saying how powerful it was for all of

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these women going through the book club.

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The book is worth it just for
the forgiveness chapter alone.

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But it’s really about having compassion
and empathy for you as a human

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with emotions and getting back to
the place where you give yourself

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permission to love as much as you did

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before you got hurt.

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And when you’re emotionally clear and
when you’ve forgiven yourself, especially

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for your humanity, you can be such
a different empowered space for the

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people around you that are also human.

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Without pity, like you
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And I think the more vulnerable and human

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we are, the more attractive and
sexy and magnificent we are.

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And it’s okay to let yourself
not feel sorry for yourself, to

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not need to run from or shut down
on any part of your humanity.

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And when you’ve mastered that, what a
gift you are to every life you touch.

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Ed Watters: Amen.

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I like that a lot.

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Let’s, let’s talk more about your
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about it being used as a workbook.

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My wife and myself, every Saturday,
we spend some time reading a portion

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of a book each week, and then we
discuss it and we think about it.

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And that’s really helping us heal our
journey that we had in the trash can.

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But I really like it when people write
books that you can actually go through

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and read and discuss like a workbook.

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What, what brought on the book?

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Of course we kind of get an idea of that,
but who’s this targeted for mainly and why

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should somebody pick it up and read it?

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Rebeccah Silence: Yeah.

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So if you want to be free, if
you want to be happy, if you want

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to get the most out of your one
precious life, this book is for you.

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And the, the book was born
when I came out of cancer.

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I had my crazy childhood and first
marriage, and I was experiencing

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so much self abuse, abusing
alcohol, eating disorder behavior.

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And, you know, I did all this work to
become somebody I could be proud of.

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I got married again, I started my
business, I got on the radio talking

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to hundreds of thousands of people
a week in the community I grew up

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in, where I was so traumatized.

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I thought I had beat my past,
and then I was coaching a

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plastic surgeon and his wife

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and they stopped me and said, You’re
here to save our marriage and you are,

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and you have, but will you come to the
office tomorrow morning at 7am so we

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can take this mole off of your arm?

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I was pregnant with my second
baby, on top of the world,

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and it was malignant melanoma.

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Turns out it was already in
my lymph nodes at the time.

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I was diagnosed at the very end of 2014,
I was thirty- four and the melanoma

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treatment was still not as researched
as some of the other forms of cancer.

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So there really wasn’t a
lot that could be done.

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I was given a five percent chance
to live and I beat the odds.

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And the book was me showcasing,
here’s my story and how I used trauma

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to my advantage to save my life.

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And there’s no trauma that can’t
be used to your advantage and I’m

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going to give you a masterclass on
how to use trauma to your advantage.

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Because what I had realized was,
at first, with the cancer journey,

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it felt very similar to, especially
in my childhood, sexual abuse.

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I’m stuck in a bed, I feel
like I’m going to die,

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like somebody is trying to kill me,
I’m in so much pain, nobody gets it.

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Oh my God.

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And what I realized very quickly was
the healed Rebeccah, because I had beat

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my childhood trauma, was equipped to
heal through this experience of cancer.

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I never identified as sick or
dying, I never called it my cancer.

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It’s a cancer diagnosis.

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There really is cancer going on in
my body, but I focused on, all right,

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as they healed me, I know how to have
a clear mind, how to have a clear

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open heart, how to connect to my body
so that I can connect to my spirit.

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And I practiced what I call the practice
of emotional healing all throughout

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my initial year and a half of going
through cancer, twenty surgeries, chemo.

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I eventually quit chemo,
which I think saved my life.

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I never recommend that to
anybody else, but I know your

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spirit will guide you home.

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So here I am vibrant, well, alive,
and I just came out of cancer and I

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couldn’t start writing fast enough.

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What just happened?

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What did I just do?

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Because it makes no sense I’m
still here, except it’s my destiny.

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And I have a divine assignment
to teach the planet the practice

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of emotional healing and how to
be the best of themselves, as

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emotionally clear as possible.

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So that’s where the book came from.

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Ed Watters: Very powerful.

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You know, in those words I heard my wife,
and identical words coming out of your

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mouth, from not only the sexual abuse,
but the physical abuse from her father.

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And, you know, It’s like, it’s a
commonality between survivors and

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these traumas, they can be healed.

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And strong people like you are
bringing it to the forefront.

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My wife will love this.

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And I particularly love this because
this is what our focus is truly

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on, is these types of traumas.

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And I think bringing it out and
helping people is so important.

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So we thank you from, from the get go
and we cheer you on to the very end.

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Do you have anything you want to
add to the conversation before

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we end our conversation today?

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Rebeccah Silence: Well,
I do recommend my book.

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I think it came through
me, but it’s not even mine.

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I think it is for all the hearts out there
that really do need and want a roadmap

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to be the best version of themselves.

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And I’ll just say, There’s nothing
to do, there’s who you want to be and

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how you want to feel, that there is
a way to connect to that information

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and plug it into your spiritual GPS.

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Regardless of what you’re facing.

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And there is absolutely nothing
outside of you more powerful than you.

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No circumstance, or abuse, or
diagnosis, or setback is more powerful

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than the essence of who you are.

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And you’re the strongest when
you’re the softest, most relaxed

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into the truth of who you are.

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And this book is here to challenge
you and to quantum leap you

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into a next level identity.

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That’s all you need to have
and create anything you want.

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And each question at the end of every
chapter is designed in such a way where

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you can ask yourself, but if you are
going to do, you know, this book with

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the best friend or with a spouse, or
even with one of your children, ask the

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questions each as individuals, but then
answer the question for your relationship.

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It’s, it’s next level to go,
There’s me, there’s you, there’s us.

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What’s important to me?

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What’s important to you?

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Now, how do we answer this together?

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So I would just give you that nugget
to consider as you buy the book.

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Um, if you love it, we
would so appreciate reviews.

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But yeah, I want the planet to
experience this book because you

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are the medicine you’ve been waiting
for, and we need you making your

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most healed impact on the world.

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And this is an empowered
experience of liberation.

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The trauma conversation shouldn’t
be so disempowering so I wrote

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this book to empower you.

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Ed Watters: Awesome.

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You know, my wife and I, we will
pick that book up to read it.

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We had that very conversation about
an hour before I got on with you.

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You know, it is about empowering
yourself, not living in your trauma.

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You can help somebody and it is important.

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There’s so many out there suffering.

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There’s young women out there
suffering, it’s your daughter,

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it’s your wife, it’s your mother.

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You know, and it goes the other way,
it’s your son, it’s your father, it’s

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your uncle, it’s your grandfather.

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We need humanity back and I think
this is one of the big things.

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You know, we need each
other and we are social

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so we need to learn to be social.

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And that’s what this journey’s about.

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If we can learn to be social, we
can learn to be loving people.

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And that’s the mindset and the journey
we’re on at the Dead America Podcast.

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We’re so thankful that you
came here today to share your

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journey, your experience with us.

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Because it’s so empowering and
don’t be a victim, be a hero.

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And you, Rebeccah, are a hero for
being out there doing it and showing

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others there’s a path to victory.

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And you don’t have to be that whatever
it is, be a victorious person and shine.

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How can people get ahold of you, grab your
book, and know a little more about you?

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Rebeccah Silence: Thank you.

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And thank you for that
reflection, I fully receive it.

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You can visit me at rebeccahsilence.com.

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Rebecca has an H, R, E, B, E, C, C, A, H
silence.com I’ve got a free masterclass

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available, if you want to experience me.

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Right when you get to the homepage,
the three must know secrets

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to heal and save your family.

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You can also get access to the book
from the website and information about

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my courses and my private coaching.

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You can check me out on YouTube there.

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You wouldn’t be able to get through
all the videos like Disneyland, if

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you tried, but there is for sure
something for you there as well.

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If you are interested in finding
me on YouTube, subscribe, please.

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And you can get all my
newest, latest material there.

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Um, but just know that we
can be more careful with each

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other’s hearts and we should be.

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And you doing this work, you’re not
going to guarantee that everybody you

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love that you know needs healing is
going to follow in your footsteps.

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But you can know you showed up
and you modeled that possibility.

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Everybody has free will and agency.

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Your job is to have your life
magically delicious and the world

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experiencing the best of you.

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And my work will guide you there.

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You are the hero in your story.

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I’m just here to say,
Come on, it’s possible.

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If I can do it, you can do it.

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I guarantee.

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And there’s never been a
case in my private practice

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I haven’t cracked.

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There’s not one case that
hasn’t been a success story.

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And this work, this material,
whether you experienced the book,

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my masterclass, my course, my
coaching, it’ll change your life.

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And it’s okay to let yourself
know joy is supposed to be your

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default, the rule you live by.

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And you’re allowed, even if
people around you don’t get that,

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don’t want that, you can have it.

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And that’s my wish for you is
that you get as much joy and love

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as possible in this lifetime.

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Ed Watters: Yeah, that’s right.

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Find the joy, put yourself there.

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It’s a simple thing to do,
but so many struggle with it.

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Thank you for being part of the
show today, Rebeccah, and I wish

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you so many blessings in life.

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Rebeccah Silence: And right back at you.

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Love you all.

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Reach out and again, thank
you so much for having me.

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Ed Watters: Thank you
for joining us today.

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If you found this podcast enlightening,
entertaining, educational in any way,

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please share, like, subscribe, and join
us right back here next week for another

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00:34:03,430 –> 00:34:06,480
great episode of Dead America Podcast.

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I’m Ed Watters, your host, enjoy
your afternoon wherever you may be.